i got some real bad anxiety abt this short mandatory meeting with my professor tomorrow night abt my education plan bc i really don’t wanna. cry in front of him lol bc i met with my counselor last week and he basically asked why i left sdsu and my bitch ass eyes started welling up like i wasn’t even emotional bc that’s how my bitch ass brain works, recalling shit i repressed doesn’t affect me emotionally but i still react physically which blooooows

so he acknowledged that something was bothering me which then triggered more tears which, again, did not indicate i was upset, and if anything i was annoyed that i have to waste time answering his questions abt what’s up with me instead of the reason i was meeting with him: to make my education plan

the counseling appt was barely worth it bc i found out i could get an associate’s for transfer for graphic design but i also realized that my ap statistics credit could’ve fulfilled my requirement for the stats class im taking for the comp sci degree im currently working on (the credit is like 6 or 7 yrs old so tho maybe not) which is that reason i have to meet with this gotdamn professor 🙃 why did i have to choose the professor who is also basically the dean of the STEM dept !! i played myself for using ratemyprofessor.. he had the highest rating for the class.. smh